Stress so much work to do at yr2!

Im feeling stressed...OMG!!!! so many things to do and plus these things looks tough and challenging for me.
First is the fairy tail cosplay imagine i have to do 4 types of armor by aug! Im gonna Die, where got time!!!!!?? And secondly is my school work which i am way behind time >.< my design is like damn hard to do will take a very long time to finish...even thou i know that the end product is gonna be really nice but i really hope i can finish all my work on time...plus with the winning of competition and high grades my teachers is expecting much higher standard from me nows....wahhhh!!!!!

Gonna work hard, fast and smart, need to spend more time in workshop. But for nows cant wait for wild wild wet with cosplay mates tml!!! yay! Its gonna be so much fun...*forgets about work already* =D hehehe!

GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT!!!!!!

Im soo happy!!! My dream has come true at last! I am the top winner of the singapore jewellery design competition for 2012. Must really thank God for what he had done for me and my boyfriend, friends and family for their support. =)

Finally i feel so glad, that i achieved something in my life....and my philosophy really is true about my believe about passion and putting in lots of hard work, success will come. This is a great success first getting many A's for my school assessments and now me being the top winner. But that dosent mean i can relax need to work more harder now because many teachers are having high expectations for me now. LOLZ!!! stress stress!! This feeling is great! I can get to save money now and have enuf money for me to cosplay!!!

Reccently juz cosplayed in cosfest x.2..it was great i get to stay in the challet and had a great time cosplaying with team mates also get to perform cure catwalk on stage with team. i was an awesome experience. lol on the way ofcos dere is lots of problems..like my props broke juz before the event because due to pratice....really busy and tired prepairing for the cosplay. Overall experience was great!!!! 

Finally after may years got in contact with jiraya and kiba...lolz!!! its good to see them again...meeting up with them to play vanguard =) will update more cosplay shoots when photoshoot is over....gtg!

Temptations

I overcomed the temptation.

After i think about it, its not worth at all.

In the end, someone will be sad.

Wads the point of having a little trill.

When u are going to hurt someone in the back.

Awesome results of 5 A's...

Its an awesome feeling to be the top studnet of my class hehehez....last term ive earned myself 5 A's 2 B's and 2 C's. And plus!!!!! I am the only student of my class whose design was selected for the final round of judging end of this month. I hope i can win the sinagpore jewellery design competition =) because the winner will have so many benefits and it will be exciting if my design is to be make and sold to the public. whee!!!

my family juz reccived a really big hamper...first time had a hanmper and wow so many goodies inside. Dun need to buy any more new year cookies already.

erm..have no idea why the pic i cant rotate lolz!!!! My new theme for jewellery design will be lolita...so decided to buy a magazine and mini cake making clay for my research on lolitas. =) not going to make these clay cakes today.. but i'll promise i'll intro u whats inside and how to make these =)

welcome 2012!!!!

Things have not been so well for me nearing the end of 2011. There are many good and bad memories. Memories that i would want to forget and some to keep inside my heart.  Christmas and new year's eve was not really a good one. I was really sad and heartbrokened....yes i agree, i regreted what i had done i shouldnt have pushed my luck too hard untill it ended up like that. But in the first place, there was no trust to begin with. I really want to just chill and drink with friends and not go partying clubbing. The way he respond to me was cold and angry, comments are heartbreaking. I think maybe i do not deserve anymore chances or forgivenes from him anymore.

Others may not know how i feel all these while, may not know the reasons of my behavior. Do yon know that everytime i react have a reason behind it and i do not just react juz because i like it. Yes, i maybe rebelious u can cor me naughty...but do you know why i am like that or u juz look only at the surface???? Do you know whenever i am sad or angry inside, i do not know how to express it..

Nevertheless, its a new year. Maybe i should juz look forward. And think carefully what i want to be in the future. Think of who are my real friends. Life there will be lots of challenges, i believe i can be strong enough to face it. My dreans and goals always stays the same it never changes. I will work towards the goal, earn lots of money and soon gain the freedom that i deserve to have.

Long time never touch my blog...
There are some things that i wan to type out here to make myself feel better here...
I think ive been bottling up all my feelings in my heart again...Never really share to anyone and dun noe the person i share with got listen a not...Haiz...

Assessments are comming and i have not finished doing my work. Time is running out and so many endless work to do in school im worried that i would repeat another year again. =( Oh well Life's never an easy road for me...Not like 'someone'. Definately i die die not going to repeat another year of school cos i know my parents will be angry with me. Plus with the current paying of fees in school, my parents are so not willing to pay and complaining to me already the school fees so high so i have to study harder.

I always dreamed to have a better life, live life in luxuary... a house by the sea, do what i want to do like lazy around my home, once a while go pub with friends, maybe a husband that is loyal and really care for me and a sucessful career...

Maybe its a truama im having or its the reality that it is getting harder and harder to survive in singapore. Ive not experienced the total independance yet cos im still studying and under my parents wings.

After everything that happends....I still feel that at the end of the day i had to face all these problems alone....I have to help myself cos no one can help me... Im angry and frustrated now, and make me feel like giving up already..

Letting out my frustrations......

Nowadays im really pissed, because i realised that some people attitude is really horible and i really hate it alot. Maybe due to my personality i dun like people who posess these bad personality triats.

Firstly they are disrespectful towards another religion. They are a bunch of foreigners who dosent seem to realise their surroundings living in a multi-cultural country. Its going to be Hari Raya and these people commented in chinese "what rubbish new year is that!!!" They juz want to come back sch quickly and do their work finish but nxt day holiday so they not happy.  Eventhou it is not my new year but i am so angry at them because they have not respect. Luckly no malay hear that comment......

Secondly they snatch people place, come on man!!! Que up!!! I was waiting for teacher to finish doing his work and then nxt its me to ask him question but all these people juz butt in and ask him question...WAD IS THIS!!!! Then in the end i wait so long jus to ask teacher how to do..plus the teacher help them do everything. WAH Liao!!! by the time i wait for teacher help class end already end le la!!!! Then i was like forget it...i do myself faster, if i keep waiting for teacher my work forever not be done cos he only help those people who keep butt in to our questions...and didnt really help us at all...

Thirdly they think money can buy everything...I next time dun wan lend them stuff le...lend them then never return and lost my things.. than give me money ask me go buy myself a new one..wah u think u alot of money big ar!!!! So what i got a new one, but money cant buy my emotions to the items that i lent to them.

And a little bit more on the teacher's comment....he say i quiet and weak...what the HELL!!! I wan ask u questions but u never attend to me than those people keep butt in than HOW to ask U!!!! Stupid sia!!! Than say i weak!!!! Cos u help people do finish all their work for them. I all do myself  no one help me and i did my own research  in lib, my technique is not u teach one is something more different and unique than others.

Nevermind lor lets see year 3 whose boss!!!! When the people u had helped them do everything are on their own on yr 3 i bet they cant do it themselves...